ugh gotta stop feeling so down....i think im just too worried about calling the YMCA but the image of my gut is becoming unbearable -_-;;  Cant understand why the mind works like it does...im fearful of how ill be perceived if im at a Gym yet i dont want to be fat so i can be healthy and not feel so depressed when i go out when people look at me (or feel they are) so i just dont do anything and go about my same old routine. I really hate all this...just wish there was a food you ate that tasted just like what you want and didnt add all the bad crap that most foods do...ugh